Am I Happy? Yes and No
by MALU BRADFORD BEYONCE
Aug 24, 2014 | 941 views | 0 0 comments | 8 8 recommendations | email to a friend | print
I just did my RSVP for my 20th high school reunion. As soon as I got done, I thought to myself, I’ve got to lose this pregnancy weight asap and buy some hair dye.

I can’t believe I have been out of high school for 20 years. When I saw the invitation all I could do was self evaluate. I won’t lie and say I don’t care what my classmates will think of me but more importantly I asked myself, am I happy with how my life turned out?

I won my high school’s beauty pageant and one of the questions they asked me was, where did I see myself in 20 years. My answer included being married with a couple of kids and being a reporter on NBC or ABC.

I gave up my dreams of being a television reporter a long time ago. For whatever reason, I decided to take a job with the PGA Tour once I graduated college. It was great. I traveled all across the nation, going from one golf tournament to the next. I did find time to work at a few television stations. I also got to be on a great public access live news show in Houston. That is where I met my husband.

When my mom got sick, I left Houston and my reporting job to come back to East Texas to take care of her. That was nearly 10 years ago. For a while I worked at KLTV during the morning newscast. I would wake up at 2 a.m. and get there before 4 o’clock. I left KLTV to work at the Pittsburg weekly newspaper. Then when my mom couldn’t be home alone, I started working from home for a computer support company. I have been taking calls for them for the past five years and writing this column for the past couple years.

I don’t think I am happy with the way my life turned out. I would rather have a mother who wasn’t sick and didn’t need around the clock care. I would rather not take calls from my home office while my mother lays in a hospital bed a few feet from me. Sounds harsh but true. I am grateful my mom is still alive and I have a job where I can work from home but am I happy about it - no. However, this is my life and I am happy to take care of my mom. I am grateful that I get to see her spend time with my children.

Sometimes your life doesn’t turn out the way you thought it would. That doesn’t mean your life is bad though. You have to take what comes your way and make the best out of it and be grateful to have what you do.

No matter what your situation, there are people worse off than you are.

When people ask me at the reunion what am I up to, I am going to be proud to tell them how my life turned out. There is nothing better than taking care of your loved ones. I am still going to buy that hair dye though.

© 2014, MaLu Bradford Beyonce, All Rights Reserved.

You may reach MaLu Bradford Beyonce at malubeyonce@gmail.com
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